These three words rouse out of my mind and stayed on my mind for a long time while I sitting under my varenda after long hours at work.More especially knowing that the ones we say we cherish and love could be taken way any time.
I lost my mom due to cancer illness few years ago.The experience and the hurt after hearing of her passing, was unbearable and devastating,
By the time I heard about the news of my mother I was unemployed and sick.It was Sunday evening when my step dad called.He was very wild and blaming me for the incident.Telling me that I should have come and took care of my sick mother.
When he end the call , He told me "since this what have wanted all the time,I hope you are happy"My goodness,how will I be happy after hearing the news of my mother's passing.Mind you that was the time of the COVID-19 pandemic.My mother did send us some money for the transport to visit, that is when my step father insisted that we use the money and cancel the trip.Well , since it was that period we agreed to wait until it dispenser.
Now I have to look for someone or something to do to make the money for transport.I tried to ignore not to report to my relatives from my father's side, since they are full of pride and confidence.Somehow someone who I once attend some church service while back appears out of nowhere.
We greeted each other and before I could ask about his wear about he looked me in the eyes and say"Nico, you have been crying man , what's wrong"?Now tears flowed from my eyes and tried to stop them but a heart does what it wants to do.I explain all what had happened and on how I ask myself if I can make it to my mom's funeral.
Right there in the spot my reached in his pocket and give me N200 to take to take a taxi to my mom's funeral.It was in Tuesday by the late afternoon, and remember,I was unstable and sick by that time.My step father welcome me, but not with a happy face,so I just told myself,ah well,I just came to bury my mom and I m out of here.
That night me and my step father slept on the same bed, and order me to sleep on the side where my mother used to sleep,He told it's their tradition and way of connecting to my mom's spiri.Well I agreed since I saw no harm doing so, and since I never got the chance to say "Mother I love you".We talked for few hours until we Jet off to sleep.That night I slept like a a baby since my step father gave me some of medicine from my mother's medical box .
In the morning we were supposed to go and look for an animal to bury my late mother, that was successful, then my step father said we should pass by to restaurant to get some food.We ate and talk, when it was time to go that is when my step father start to get angry and shouting in the car.Telling that I have nothing and I m a dog without any relatives who loves me.
What is happening now,I!?I just don't know, out of blue's my stepfather was on fire and promise to leave in the middle nowhere if I keep talking back.Hey, my step father even told me that when we get home I must take my stuff and go.Thats when I tell him that ain't going to happen.
We reached home safely and that night I decided to sleep in shack house prepared for some of stuff like grocers and the vegetables, After my step father noticed that I decided to move out to that,he asked his son to take his little dog to come to stay in there with me,.In excuse of saying that the thief's might steal it.Even some people ask i,why now course the dog is long time staying out side .
In my mom's house,I have to ask for the breakfast which I know that before when my mother was alive I will just go on and grab a sandwich or something.Now I was supposed to ask for water to bath.
At the funeral I was quite and observing.I was not popular.I booked at my mom's face in the coffin and I saw we splendid beautiful princess and happy.I buried my mother and after the funeral,I just took what belongs to me and heat the road.I did not take any thing , even a cup or plate or a photo from my mother's belongings.Nit even a black single cent I got, but I was glad that I managed to say I love you mother and goodbye.
Just say it deeply and passionately,I LOVE YOUR MOTHER,I LOVE YOU SISTER,I LOVE YOU FRIEND,I LOVE YOU NEIGHBOUR.
GOD BLESS YOU!
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