I can not even travel to Tokyo with him

"I can not even travel to Tokyo with him"

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Finally We broke up just three days before the trip to Tokyo.

After a good eight months together, the planned trip to Tokyo is even finally ready.

But finally we can not even go to Tokyo.

It was just a few days ago, that you suddenly told me that your mother did not really like me just because your mother once heard me swear, saying that your mother kept scolding you for knowing bad quality girls and even some kinds of unknown people.

But You just told me to ignore about what your mother had really said about me on that day, but it turns out that the moment you said it to me, you had already decided to break up with me.

But you did not tell me this, and you are still said that you are still the man whom you would still love me and you are a man who would really loves me very much, you still tell me every day that you still love me.

After only a few days, I sensed a change in you and could not recognize the initiative to ask you.

You readily admitted that your mother's words had a great impact on you and put a lot of pressure on you.

You said you were not thinking of breaking up with me, but I knew very well that you had already made up your mind and

it was only because you were a few days away from the trip and you did not want everyone’s trip to be much more embarrassing, so you kept on pretending that it was still okay and pretending to be the one you who loved me so much.

You said your mom does not like me, so my future to become your wife will not even happen.

Unfortunately, do you have the option to try for me and try to see if you can change your mom’s mind.

You answered me very directly that this is not something that your range can solve.

You told me directly that you did not love me since the day your mom scolded you.

I do not understand until this moment, although eight months is not some long time, but why you can, all at once erase all memory so, all at once said not to love.

You also told us to continue to travel happily, the way of a girlfriend.

Have you ever thought that I really do not know how to face it?

This trip to Tokyo was one I had been looking forward to for a long time.

I prepared a lot for this journey, buying a new camera, buying a selfie mirror, buying a lot of daily necessities that you need to use, all to make more beautiful memories with you, and you always tell me we need to go and take more pictures.

Unfortunately everything is useless now.

This journey I will choose to continue, however I have not thought through to this moment what kind of mindset I am approaching this journey with.

Should I, cherish these best eight months with you.

But as soon as I thought that from the moment I landed, you and I went our separate ways ever since, my tears kept flowing.

Reason tells me that I should no longer linger on you as a person, because in your mind, my weight is too light.

But I really can not forget that, every single thing that happened in these eight months. I can not forget you who loved me so much.

It started with you again, I really thought I could be happy from now on, no matter how much hurt I went through in the past, you told me time and time again that you will always be there for me and that you will always love me.

Now it is like my soul was emptied all at once, when you loved me, I did not think you would give up on me without hesitation.

I plan a lot with where you go, what to do and what to play,

But it turns out I really can not count the day I walked with you.