Being inlove is a blessing also a curse sometimes.
My name is Zethembiso a girl who lived in an urban area at Ntuzuma. I went to school in my area and when I reached high school I had a math problem,so my granma asked her friends son to help me study. The son was now in university so he would come bck on weekends just to assist me with school work.
As time went on
(the son) started telling me how he felt about me by this time I was also feeling otherwise my feelings have changed from how we first met. Sbu told me he now feels love in his heart whenever the though of me passes his mind.
I told him I felt the same , we then started dating by that time I was still pure . Us being together was not a problem to our parents as they thought we were studying cause we would be alone at that time.
We used this time to share our love but we also made time for studying, this was what I loved about him he put put school first in everything. Everything was ohk I passed my matric now heading to university also.
I have never experienced love before so me being with him was heavenly,my feelings suddenly changed I no longer loved him like before so I blocked him from everything.
That how we separated for the first time . I didn't feel pain for the first 3 months because I was inlove with another guy. I started feeling lonely and regrets after 3 months, the new guy was nothing like sbu. So I left him found another one but the same thing happened.
I was very scared to go back and explain what happened to Sbu. I finally got the courage and told him but he rejected me. I understood his reasons but my heart wasn't ready to let go.
So I befriended him just to be close to him. A year passed I went bck to him again because I wasn't finding love now so I belied that going back to him will be the best thing.
I told him how I felt and I begged him to take me back. By this time he had a girlfriend whom stayed in the same area he lived. So I left where I was living yo go stay back home just to be close to him,wrong move that one.
We'll since I was the one who wanted to fix things I had to put more effort and also understand that he has a girlfriend, bad move I know right. But all I wanted at that time was to be close to him ..the first few months were the best I enjoyed everything but then things started to get very bad. I had to be the one calling him all the time.
Begging him to come see me. This was becoming frustrating for me,I started to realize that he was no longer onto me, he just wanted to get his revenge . I ignored all that I stayed in this relationship, things were getting worse everyday I would cry myself to sleep. A day I would never forget came I felt that if I don't leave him then I would probably suffer depression and more. I started focusing on myself more. He noticed this and came back I wasn't about to tell him already so I played along but in my heart knowing what I want this time around.
I continued focusing on myself until one day I decided to leave him, I left while I still loved him very much but my health was more important that love .
That's how I saved myself from depression and stress.Now I know time heals. Patience is virtue indeed.
I now found love again, and stopped looking for him in every man I meet.
I'm very happy now.
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